We are constantly told not to want so many things, but you can never get something unless you want it.
I want to make a difference, in at least one life, for at least one moment. I want to be happy with what I have and what I don’t have and I want to know the difference between the two. I want to let go of what makes me sad, of the things that hurt, while at the same time remembering the lessons I’ve learned for those lessons are more valuable than gold. I want to have a family that includes people from all over the world, and I want to see them at least once a year. I want those kind and warm people that put smiles on my face everyday to know how important they are to me and to the world. I want to keep incontact with those that want to keep contact with me. And I want to understand those who don’t. I want to wake up in the morning excited about something other than my coffee. I want people to be kind, and honest, and to look beyond what is just in front of them. I want to sit in a cafe by myself and be okay with that. I want to love and be loved in every which way one can love and be loved. I want to see the beauty in the small things and the insignificance in the big things. I want prejudice, hate, and rudeness to be replaced with compassion, understanding, and forgiveness. I want to learn forgiveness. I want to have faith in my decisions and trust in myself to make decisions. I want my family, blood and not, to find what makes them happy and do that. I want to take photographs that make people think about something other than their worries. I want to take photographs that make people feel something. I want take what I have and make it something more. I want to use what I already have and create something bigger. I want to write, and love, and cry, and sing. And I want to do all of that with the people I love.
I want all these things, plus a million more.
Written at “The Local” in Saskatoon